my possessor

i wonder about the being
that resides in me

why is it so intent on guarding
its carrier?
what motivates its decisions?
what makes it toss up
paradoxic instincts
if it stood to gain something
from a favourable consequence
to its host?

shouldn't the decisions be
clear?
it can't be the perversity of
watching the host suffer,
if the being is capable of that kind of fun
it would have chosen a better
candidate as a host